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July 29, 2004
reflections.
so, I'm terribly happy right now.
and drunk.
and stuff.
drunken reflection #1: when you go see a band and you end up sitting too close to the stage to hear a damned thing other than boring band noise, don't tell your guitar-playing friend that he's the best in his row. he'll hurt you.
drunken reflection #2: the reason why it never works, for me, is that I can't get over the thought that I will inevitably hurt the person who chooses to be with me. and that this thought is terribly arrogant and pessimistic and doomed. and I simply must thank the boy of stupid over-involved and doomed three day dating cycle for making me realize that I've spent the last two years being just that goddamned arrogant, holding back because of self indulgent stupidity, rather than jumping in feet first and trusting that not all ponds hide jagged rocks.
here's to believing in myself enough to know that if i hit a rough spot, I'll heal. and so will everyone else, eventually.
seriously.
there's no harm in being honest. and no harm in liking someone before you know if they are capable of liking you back. and there's certainly no reason why you can't change your mind when you have more facts.
no reason at all.
Posted by Heather at July 29, 2004 01:14 AM
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A propos of almost nothing, I would add these caffinated reflection:
Come out, Virginia. Don't make me wait.
You Catholic girls start much too late. Oh, sooner or later it comes down to fate. I might as well be the one.
(I just finished the most gaylordian compilation CD ever. I'm going to *rock* those French girls next week, down in Gascony).
I might be laughing a bit too loud,
Love,
N.
Posted by: N. at July 29, 2004 06:47 AM
Neal, you're both adorable and hilarious.
forget Gascony - you come right over here so I can make you whimper.
but....leave that gaylordian CD at home, m'kay?
I like writing weblogs drunk. 'cause when I wake up in the afternoon and re-read what I've written, it's like a special little treat: I'm always surprised, and never bored.
okay, sometimes I'm bored.
but anyway.
Posted by: heather at July 29, 2004 10:02 AM
"Not all ponds hide jagged rocks."
Fine advice. You should write that on a little strip of paper, and tape it to your new Dell's monitor. I used to have "Lighten up, Francis" above mine, years back. It helped a surprising amount.
Posted by: Andrew at July 29, 2004 11:15 AM
A Ghostbusters reference. Nice.
It's strange that you make me miss being hurt by love. You remind me how, well, terribly romantic it can be. Can be.
I guess I could always ask my better half to hurt me. But I babble. And I'm not even drunk.
Posted by: Uptown Girl at August 9, 2004 05:13 PM