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August 06, 2003
in which she finally conjures the cojones to tell him.
he knew.
he totally, completely could tell, just like I thought he could. from that first kiss, even.
he knew and he spent the last several dates trying to tell me, too.
and he thought he was being all un-subtle, like, obvious, even.
I was so caught up in the crushing on him, and the "not fucking things up by being psychotically head-over-heels so soon," I selfishly didn't even notice that he was crushing just about as hard.
but twenty-twenty hindsight brings all that lovely crushing behavior to the forefront...
dropping hints, blushing in all the right places...I can see it all now.
you-all are right - life is too short to wait.
it's so funny, nothing has changed as a result of my telling him how I feel. nothing changes with the knowledge that he feels the same way. I thought I'd feel...relief or something. I actually feel more...intense...more....urgent.
more driven to make something of myself. of my life. almost like I have something to prove.
I'm gobsmacked, any way you look at it.
oh yes, while I'm catching my breath and loving that I'm making his catch in his throat, I need you all to turn to Sundance Channel this week and catch their shorts program - especially the 1998 spectacular: Personne Avant Toi - you'll thank me.
seriously. it's the finest film I've seen in a long time.
although the finest performance I've seen has got to be johnny D in that new pirate flick. but then again, what woman doesn't dream of being that pirate's booty? what woman other than myself of course. as my booty, as of this writing, is joyfully spoken for.
and the finest direction/editing is, of course, Spellbound.
when you can make the most easily bored woman in america sit on the edge of her seat to find out which rugrat wins a spelling bee...that's incredible filmmaking, right there.
Posted by Heather at August 6, 2003 02:34 PM
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This is fabulous news. I'm delighted for you.
Though I'm mainly writing to share something uncanny that happened today. I'm moving to a new apartment, and they're supposed to turn on the phone tomorrow, so I was just testing out a little old digital answering machine of mine to see whether it still worked. Not only did it still work, it still had a message on it. From two and a half years ago. From you.
You left me a virtual hug. After two and a half years, I think it should be returned without further delay. Here ya go, monkeydoll.
Enjoy your well-deserved bliss!
Posted by: Mysterious Utility Wizard at August 7, 2003 02:52 PM
Wow, you did it. Like you're still capable of feeling that. I really fear I've killed that part of myself. But good for you. Amazing really, to be so crushing, and find out to your wonderment that it's coming back at you.
Posted by: Glovia at August 8, 2003 08:02 PM
You are quite the psycho bitch!
I don't think that these people would acknowledge "sharing fluids" with you, let alone appreciate your describing your purportedly intimate affairs online.
Not sure who you are; stumbled across your site from a link on another, so apparently someone is interested in your lifestyle.
I hope you're using a condom with these guys, because you never know. You really never do.
You obviously think very highly of yourself, which leads me to believe that you are very insecure.
Have a nice day.
Posted by: Observer at August 12, 2003 10:45 PM
oh my dear observer.
I'm so glad you could join us here. and so glad for your opinions.
especially the new definition of the word 'insecure'
I'll remember that for the future: if one thinks highly of one's self, one is 'insecure'.
and if one has low self-esteem, one is 'secure'.
and if one shares details of one's life on their online journal, one is a psycho bitch!
fabulous!
Posted by: heather at August 12, 2003 11:22 PM
Fabulous indeed! I've always wanted to be a psycho bitch. Who knew it was so easy? And to think, an insecure psycho bitch at that. At least I'm in good company.
Heth, rock on witch'er bad self.
Posted by: Oblivion at August 13, 2003 09:25 PM
Ten bucks says "Observer" is really "Jealous ex-Mrs. Bob" again. Why else would the person bother telling you that they "stumbled across your site" and they're "not sure who you are"? Random flamers don't go out of their way to try to get you to believe they don't know you.
Posted by: Fargo North, Decoder at August 14, 2003 09:37 AM
Normally, I'm not a part of the whole posting thing. But - you know - while picturepicture does open herself up for any comments, including 'you're a psycho bitch,' I agree with FND that that particular poster did sound like they knew Heather, and were trying to come across as a random. And . . . it's just so lame to be a coward like that. If you have something to say, at least own up to saying it.
And if you are a random flamer then - wull - I guess I'm glad I don't have your life, and mean spirit, and free time.
Lest I be called a hypocrite, I will admit right now my email address is obviously fake. This is Heather's blog, not mine, and I've no interest in even possibly getting emails from any of the sickos who read her site (said with a sarcastic grin). =) But those are my initials, and in case anyone (Heather) is really, truly stumped as to who this is (and she's a smart girl so I doubt it) . . . ask professed psycho bitch #2. We sleep together and stuff.
I wish I could say I was a psycho bitch, but I'm more whiny than anything. Occasional moments of psychosis maybe . . . but overall nothing spectacular. c'est la vie. Such is the lot of a suburban haus frau.*wink*
Posted by: acr at August 19, 2003 12:07 PM