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July 16, 2003
A love affair is not a lifetime.
the night was over, we were yawning and giggly and at the point where you either say 'goodbye' or 'come up for a minute...'
All I wanted was a kiss.
and he kissed me. we kissed.
and I stayed for a moment. held his head in my hands, dug my fingers into his scalp and felt his hands tremble on my hips. we just stood there. kissing.
it was perfect. the perfect end to the perfect date.
I fell in love for that brief moment. and I think he could tell.
kissing with your eyes wide open can be very, very romantic, with the right person.
and I'm so very, very grateful he let me. and kept with the kissing. and the trembling. and the kissing.
I'm very, very happy to have had those trembling hands on me, if only for that moment.
to help me to remember why we date at all.
why I date.
why we (I) even bother.
yes, there's always the hope that things might lead somewhere. that I'd meet the guy who keeps the sparks running on both sides of the engine. the one who wants to hear my stories - who has stories of his own to share. the gomez to my morticia, as it were.
yes, I know love is supposed to be more than that - how it's about understanding. about compromising, but not too much. about letting go of expectations. about intangible and tangible and everything in between.
it's about all sorts of stuff that can't be contained in just one hour-long kiss.
but I love the small surprises - I love that I'm healed enough to even entertain the idea of loving someone, even for just that one hour. and I wonder what my life would be like if I could just let that happen again. full-time.
Posted by Heather at July 16, 2003 07:21 PM
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Falling in love for that brief moment is so right on. Glad to see the healing is working.
Posted by: Multi-pass at July 16, 2003 10:40 PM
(tapping the mic and listening to the squelch)
(looking around for a moment before letting my eyes settle on my feet)
ive felt compelled to jump myself into these comments for what seems to have been several weeks. now i shall.
of late i keep finding myself humming "something" by the beatles when i read these recent posts.
theyve truly been awe inspiring.
there. ive said absolutely nothing. please continue on with what it was y'all were doing.
Posted by: auftn at July 18, 2003 01:24 AM
You can only love (men anyway) for a moment at a time.
Posted by: Glovia at July 18, 2003 01:23 PM
Yes, but a series of moments make up a lifetime.
Well done Heather - powerful piece.
Posted by: brian at July 21, 2003 01:10 PM